Malu....

I'm embarassed with my own race...

I know I shouldn't be saying that and I know I might be getting lots of hate mails after this. However, this is what I truly feel right now.

I was queing to photocopy some documents at a small kiosk near my office building during lunch today. The aunty was very slow in operating the machine. It took her almost 5 minutes just to attend to a customer. I didn't mind actually, because I understand that that was not the daily job (her husband usually operates the machine while she handles the cash register).

Suddenly, a malay lady came in with a sour face and started to accuse the aunty of taking her photocopied documents. She said that the aunty had held back one of the document (a personal written letter).

Lady: Kenapa awak nak ambik surat saya...
Lady: Tak baik tau awak curi barang orang...
Lady: Saya bukannya india (referring to the aunty's race) pun kalau awak nak baca..
Lady: Macam laa awak faham apa yang saya tulis tuh...
Aunty: *silent*
Binx: *shakes head*
Lady: Kalau macam nieh macam mana awak nak maju..
Lady: Ntah2 ada terlekat dalam machine nieh kut
Lady: Isk.. tak baik laa awak curik document org..
Lady: pok pek pok pek.. tuh laa india nieh.. pok pek pok pek..
Lady: Kalau betul u curik my document, I tak halal this 10 sen..

.. and she walked off..


Astaghfirullah....

I was shocked to hear a very 'alim' lady accusing an innocent Indian aunty like that. Why would the aunty want to take her document in the first place? Bukannya lady tuh famous pun to the extend that the aunty can sell off the letter to the press for hot news. And to bring up the race issue and associate it with such act.. I really think it was disgraceful. MALU!!

The government, UMNO especially, was trying to raise the standards of Malays. However, I really think that their vision will be unfruitful. This is not because I don't have faith in the leaders of the country. It's just that I don't have faith in my own race...

Try observing the scenes around you. Who are the ones caught having sex in the bush in a public park? Who are the ones caught for organising "Lumba Haram" street race every weekends? Who are the ones caught raping their own daughters or even sodomising their own sons?

Maybe the scenes I've described was too much.. Ok let's take a look at other scenarios...

Who are the ones that gets easily accepted to the local universities without having to sit for STPM? Who are the ones that gets the privellege to be sponsored by the government agencies to pursue their tertiary education locally and abroad? Who are the ones that spend most of their time in university exploring all the excitement in life (rusa masuk kampung) and ended up graduating in the lowest ranking class (if they graduate at all) ?

I know these are the extreme cases. However, most of the answers point out to one race, kan? Nak cakap kutuk bangsa sendiri, tak laa jugak. I'm just stating the obvious. If you think you can't handle these facts, please stop reading now.

Yes, no doubt there are Malays that had made us proud. Those are the exceptional ones that had run away from the normal cliche that has been associated with Malays. Those people are the ones that we should set as our example.

Ok.. If I were to elaborate more on how I feel, I am afraid that I might not see the next daylight. Hence, I shall stop here now.. But before I conclude, I just want to say that I am proud that I am a Malay, it is just that I am ashamed to be associated with those kinds of Malays that I've mentioned above.

Here's a song that we used to sing in MRSM that really sparks the 'semangat kemelayuan' in me whenever I hear it. I remember seeing the lyrics printed and framed in our library at home when dad was around...

Warisan

Anak kecil main api
Terbakar hatinya yang sepi
Airmata darah bercampur keringat
Bumi dipijak milik orang

Nenek moyang kaya raya
Tergadai seluruh harta benda
Akibat sengketa sesama kita
Cita lenyap di arus zaman

Indahnya bumi kita ini
Warisan berkurun lamanya
Hasil mengalir ke tangan yang lain
Pribumi merintih sendiri

Masa depan sungguh kelam
Kan lenyap peristiwa semalam
Tertutup hati terkunci mati
Maruah peribadi dah hilang

Kini kita cuma tinggal kuasa
Yang akan menentukan bangsa
Bersatulah hati bersama berbakti
Pulih kembali harga diri

Kita sudah tiada masa
Majulah dengan gagah perkasa
Janganlah terlalai teruskan usaha
Melayu kan gagah di Nusantara

binx: panas.. panas...