Case #1
An ex buzzed me on MSN msgr yesterday. It has been awhile since I've last heard from him. We still kept in touch from time to time after being MIA for a couple of years since we've parted. He is such a sweet guy.. always full of praises and kind words, even now. Never once have I seen him crossed, except for the time when a policeman actually lectured us for lepaking at Bukit Gasing, when all we did was lepak (not even sitting side by side) while listening to him plucking the guitar. We were lectured for a full 15 mins about the responsibility of a muslim and about being at that type of place at night. We were so pissed with the policeman that both of us screamed at the top of our lungs as soon as we entered the car.. Those were the days.. Now he's ending his bachelor days very soon and seek my help to calm his nervous feelings.
Even though we've parted ways for almost 7 years now, I still feel some warm feelings whenever he calls or buzzes me on the net. Maybe it's because he's one of the first guy that had managed to penetrate my ever-so-keras heart. Hence, it is quite sad to see him settling down. Plus, I know for a fact that I won't be hearing from him after his marriage for sure.. I have a feeling that the future wife hates my guts (don't ask me how I know this.. women's intuition.. never question it *winks*). There goes my IT support guy who was always there for me whenever I needed help.
Hope that you'll have a truly blessed wedding, my dear Setokin...
Case #2
Heard that this Ex is now seeing someone new. An engaged lady from his workplace. Mamat nieh tak habis-habis penuh dengan scandals.
Part of me felt kind of relieved that he's moving on with his life after our sad ending. However, what struck me as sad is that we've lost touch ever since we broke up 3 years ago. In deed it was my wish for him to stop calling and begging for another go at it. But I really missed our mind-boggling chat about the things that matters, on various issues, the friendly banter, the intellectual debate that I always ended up losing. When I've made amend with myself and my feelings, I've made a few attempts to keep in touch with him but only to be ignored. Yeah... I can't blame anyone else but myself (bang myself on the head...).
Case #3
This is not the case of an ex.. It's about The One That Got Away.. I've a few of these people stashed in my emotional closet. I really hate the fact that they all got away due to my stupidity of not telling them how I felt. Jual mahal laa kan konon... then terus melepas.. Oh well.. This subject of the heart is hard to say.. I mean I'm the type that don't have the guts to confess my feelings until the other party says something about it 1st. Thus, all I can do is just watch as the moment passes me by (just like the scene in My Best Friend's Wedding), which is always the case with me.
It's not that I don't have any confidence in me.. Hey, I'm a Leo, a true believer, leader, go-getter... Just that when it comes to the matter of the heart I'm a total coward... Maybe coming from a broken family had made me a bit cautious in this department. Can't help but asking myself 20 questions before really plunging into the game of pursuing The One. However, by the time I am ready to take the plunge, The One would have already been taken. My loss...
I guess I just have to keep moving on...
Oh no I, I will survive
Yeah.. As Long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive, I will survive
Yeah, yeah
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