What happened to the old Binx?

I've been doing some soul searching lately... I've been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting... And what I can deduce from all that thinking and reflecting is that I am not the same old Binx that I used to be a year ago.

The old Binx was a confident girl, full of determination to succeed in life. She was willing to go all out to get what she wanted. She would not break into tears at the slightest problem she encountered. Instead, she'll just double her effort in order to solve the matter.

The current Binx is the weak Binx. She just gives up whenever she faces a barrier, surrendering without even trying to put up a fight. Maybe the Beast had managed to kill her spirits or maybe all the things that had happened through out 2006 had managed to dampen her determination to fight. Now she just surrenders her future to fate, not even trying to put in any effort to change it.

I hate the current Binx. She cries easily, especially when the situation rendered her helpless. How am I gonna transform the current Binx back into her old self?

Maybe a trip to the East-Coast will do her some good... Maybe...





binx: mata dah bengkak...