June has finally passed... It has been a very bitter month for me, with everything in my life making a 180 degree turn.
Somehow, I just can't imagine that my life will end up this way last January. All I cared about at that time was just to get the accounts over and done with and hand in my resignation letter. I kept reminding myself at that time that things will get better after that. However, I must have been living in a fairytale world to think that it will be sun shining, birds chirping, flowers blooming all the time.
I almost called it quits a few days back. I don't know what else to do. One thing for sure, I know for a fact that crying myself to sleep won't work. Trying to cover the sadness with a forced smile and laughs won't work too. It will only make you feel even worse after that.
Just wish that things will just be smooth sailing for the next 6 months. I know it is too much to ask for because life is a constant roller coaster. However, I just hope against hope that 2006 will end with a good promising note for me.
Somehow, I just can't imagine that my life will end up this way last January. All I cared about at that time was just to get the accounts over and done with and hand in my resignation letter. I kept reminding myself at that time that things will get better after that. However, I must have been living in a fairytale world to think that it will be sun shining, birds chirping, flowers blooming all the time.
I almost called it quits a few days back. I don't know what else to do. One thing for sure, I know for a fact that crying myself to sleep won't work. Trying to cover the sadness with a forced smile and laughs won't work too. It will only make you feel even worse after that.
Just wish that things will just be smooth sailing for the next 6 months. I know it is too much to ask for because life is a constant roller coaster. However, I just hope against hope that 2006 will end with a good promising note for me.
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
~Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten~
binx: if it's to be, it's up to me
3 comments:
All the best, Binx. U're not a quitter!.. I hope things will be better for you. *hugs*
I'm in a mess myself.
well...life is like that sometimes kan? but i know you'll get through it..it'll pass.
chin up!
* i'm here..
well, you've taken the path less travelled. so make the best out of it.
anyways, if you didnt try you wouldnt know. give it a couple more months and see how the thing goes.
hoping is one thing, working your your a** off is the way to go.
-mbltr-
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