Family Affair

Received an sms frm Ayah at 7 a.m. saying that an uncle (his BIL) had just passed away after subuh.

Innalillah.... May Allah bless his soul.

I can't take the day off since it was my first day reporting to Aunty Beast. Hence, promised Ayah that I'll rush off to Seremban directly after work.

I felt really really bad for not being able to be with the family. After patching things up with Ayah, I was hoping to do the same with the rest of the jawa clan. However, this is the set of family that I haven't seen since 1998. Anticipating that the situation will be kinda weird, I tried to persuade the only sibling that I have left at home to come along (plus it was also a request from Ayah to ask her to come). Unfortunately, the occasion doesn't seem very important to her that she would rather stay home than lend a shoulder to a grieving aunt and sons.

Was emotionally unstable the whole day. And the best part was that it was not due to the fact that I am now officially reporting to Aunty Beast. Actually, that part of my day was ok. She hardly spoke a single word to me. My agony was caused by the fact that someone would be so cold hearted as to ignore a request to attend to family gathering and plus had the heart to make plans to go see a movie. Being the emotional me, I tried very hard to control my anger that I broke into tears. If family sendiri pun tanak pegi... tak tau laa macam mana nak cakap lagi....

Tried to control my emotions by concentrating on my newly assigned task. However, my mind just couldn't focus. I knew that I could not drive down to Seremban alone in that state of mind. Tried to get Mrs. Wacko to teman me, since her hubby is not around.. Unfortunately, her FIL thought that it would be very dangerous for 2 girls to be driving around at night...

HELLO.....!!! Uncle, I've driven back to Kelantan through the Gua Musang road at 2 a.m. before... I am no wreckless driver laaa....!!

Anyway, I ended up cruising alone on the KL-Seremban Highway at 5.30 p.m. It was actually a welcome treat, to be driving alone, fast (120-140 kmph), with the radio on full blast.

Made a pit stop at the Seremban R&R to re-fuel the tank.

"Hai kak.. Jagung manis kak? Makan laa jagung manis kak... baru muka tuh manis sikit..."

OH WOW!!!!!!!!

I felt as if I've been slapped right smacked in the face.............. How can I be all smiling sweetly, when I've just cried my eyes out the whole entire journey? Errrkkk... anyway, got myself THE "soul-food" (snickers bars) and a can of 100 PLUS POWER to wash down the sorrows.

The dreaded encounter with the long-lost family went very well, surprisingly. Everyone was still the same, except for the kids. My god, they have grown into men now... I can hardly recognise them all.. Nieh if berselisih tepi jalan kat KL, mmg tobat tak kenal. One cousin, who used to be so short and well-rounded, now loomed over me like the Ghostbuster's White Marshmallow man. Goodness.... how time flies.

It was a good 2 hours spent, trying to rekindle the old family ties that had broken due to two hearts that have lost their love. I've made an effort to get everyone's number, just in case there'll be any need to visit them to pass a certain "invitation" in the future *winks*.



We don't need, don't need, no haters
Just try to love one another
We just want y'all have a good time
No more drama in your life
Work real hard to make a dime
If you got beef, your problem, not mine
Leave all that BS outside
We're gonna celebrate all night
Let's have fun, tonight, no fights

~ Mary J. Blige: Family Affair ~



Binx: emotionally recovered....