I've got a hole in my soul...

This week has been a week full of emotions.

Had an embarrassing confrontational session with someone dear to me. Luckily what I thought was there was just my imagination... pheeeewh.... Managed to 'purify the air' between us and that was a total relieve! It's good to talk about things openly and not second guess anything in order to avoid any awkward situations. I personally think that things can be resolved maturely if only you let it out openly.

Revisited a soft-tender place in my heart earlier this week when someone from the past paid me a visit. It has been almost 5 years since we've last seen each other for more than 10 minutes. It was good to see him again - talking and joking about the good old days. However, neither one of us touched about what had happened between us long time ago. It was as if that particular episode in our lives did not transpire at all. It might have been for the best cause there was no need to go down that lane any more. Life goes on...

With all my time being occupied between planning for the reunion and studying, I still had time to dwell on the fact that I am lonely. Yeah.. I'm pathetic, I know.... Maybe it's because of the number of wedding invitations that I've received for the up coming month. Or the fact that I realised that almost 80% of my batch that are coming for the reunion are either married / engaged / involved. Suddenly it doesn't feel like fun turning up at the reunion and having to explain that I'm a 27-year old with no career and no partner when everyone else will come bearing stories about how successful they are and how great their partners and kids are. Oh tidaaaakkk....

I fell asleep last night thinking about my pathetic life... Oh god, I really need to do something about it real soon...




binx: i think too much.. i know...