We all need somebody to lean on...

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on



Song: Lean On Me
Singer: Bill Withers






I was in the office, working on a very gruesome deferred tax spreadsheet, when this song popped up on my favorite Pandora station. Ah... such simple yet meaningful song..

We all need somebody to lean on... Without which, we tend to stray to the brink of nowhere, lost in our disarrayed thoughts. Some might be suicidal at this stage, though most tend of get carried away with their flow of thoughts.

Well, where am I going with this post?

After all that have transpired for the past week, I just want to thank YOU for being there for me. Also for lending me your ears and listening to me rambling all about it. Thanks for offering me your shoulders for me to weep on - you know how emotional I can get *winks*..

Also thanks for the well wishes in the comment box, emails and sms'es. I truly appreciate all your thoughts.



Remember to holler when YOU need somebody to lean on yeah...





binx: now back to work... *sigh*

I missed you sooooo much...!

I haven't seen you for almost a week.. Oh, how I missed you so...


I am so used to seeing you everyday that one day without you felt incomplete. Oh, how I missed you so...


We didn't get to say a proper goodbye because your trip was unplanned. Oh. how I missed you so...


And I constantly prayed that Allah will keep you safe throughout that grief moment.. I am so sorry that I can't be by your side during the intense operation. Nevertheless, you were constantly on my mind...


Today, we were reunited once again. You were cold and distant at first, and that made me sad... The cold look in your eyes almost broke my heart.


I am sorry, dear...


I promise you will never have to go through it again....








The painful stiches












"Why did you have to leave me there for almost a week? Don't you love me anymore?"













"I'm tired!"















"I'm in pain!"













*yawnsss*

zzzz......












"Can you put that phone away and layan me ah?"
















"I need a good back-rub..."















"Ey... enought with the camera laaa.."
















"Let me sleep in peace... pleaseeeeeee!"











Good night, sayang.... Rest well...




Binx: no more trips to the vet

26.01.2006 - THE Day!

Episode I


Woke up early in the morning to an empty inbox - dang! Where is that e-mail?

On the way to the office, received a call from Cik_dee - she got her e-mail already..

Rushed to the office - still empty!

The other two colleagues also got their e-mails!

Waited anxiously until 10.30 am, picked up the phone and dialed the head office.

Alhamdulillah.....! I got through 1 out of 3 papers... (for a professional exam, that's good news!)



Episode II


Went to see Beast, told her THE news, and she didn't seem surprised. In fact, she looked happy, or was it glad?

Next, went to see Uncle Dan, and gave him, first the good news, and then THE news. He was very happy at first, telling me that now I should really concentrate on clearing off the 2 papers.

However, his face fell when I passed him THE letter..

Uncle D: Why do you need to give me this letter?!
Binx: It's something that I've been wanting to do for quite some time now
Binx: And I guess this is the right time for me to give it to you...
Uncle D: But I have already planned out your future with the company
Uncle D: I'm changing your portfolio soon..
Uncle D: Can't you delay your plans and stay for at least another year?
Binx: *holding back tears* I don't think I can do that, Uncle. I'm very sorry.

Later, received a call from Uncle Singh...

Uncle S: Girl, what is this I hear about you leaving?
Binx: Errmmm, yeah you heard it rite, Uncle S..
Uncle S: Why? You'll be working under me very soon..
Uncle S: Uncle D had personally chosen you to come here (a subsidiary)
Uncle S: to head the accounts department...
Binx: Huh? Really? He didn't tell me that..
Uncle S: Well, that's the plan.. So please go and see him and take back your letter.
Binx: I don't think that's what I want to do anymore, Uncle
Uncle S: Why do you want to throw your professional career to chase your dreams?
Uncle S: You can do that later.. You are still young..
Uncle S: Plus, this opportunity only come once in a lifetime..
Binx: Yeah, I know.
Binx: But I think it is better for me to start doing the things that I love..



I don't know if I have done the right thing. Throwing away a chance to become a somebody in a company in order to pursue my dreams. Stupid, they say...

However, thanks to the darling people in my life (you know who you are - love you guys!), that have constantly reminded me of the better things that I should look forward to in the future, I have decided to stick to my original plan, come what may..

I shall not look back to this day and regret my decision. I shall not shed any tears of sorrow... only tears of sadness for having to leave a great place that has been my 2nd home for the last 3 years. I shall not mark this day as the day I was defeated by the Beast. No, she did not win. I chose to seek for a better life. Hence, in a way, I AM the winner.



binx: 2 and half months to go!

Never Ever

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feelin yeah, you got me feelin really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscious to fight
The way I'm feelin' yeah, it just dont feel right

I'll keep searchin' deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace, gotta feel at ease
Need to be
Free from pain, going insane
My heart aches, yeah

~ All Saints~

Heard on the radio, on my way back from work tonight, that they are getting back together for a new album.. I can't wait! I simply love their songs - great music and superb lyrics!




binx: heaven lift me up...

Sleepless Weekend...

I've been deprived of my beauty sleep this weekend. Well, it is no one's fault, but my own. Or maybe there are a few culprits that are involved in contributing to my lack of sleep.. hehehe.

It started since Friday when I spent the beginning of the weekend terperuk in the office, trying to solve the mystery of balancing the accounts. Me and Zorro were the only two left in the building when we walked out of the office at around 10'ish p.m. Called home only to find out that no one was there. Hence, had to make a pit-stop at the local 7-E to grab my dinner - Burger Ayam Special with cheese + 100 Plus Power...

Had to drag myself out of bed the next morning because I need to get a head start on work. Promised the girls that I'll go for a movie with them at 3 p.m. Hence, I was at my cubicle at 10 (got delayed because had to teman Mom makan breakfast dulu) and was cracking my head to solve the unresolved mystery. Why laa the Company need to be so complex? Why do they need to make a Malaysian history by venturing into a very complicated corporate exercise..? It's not those directors yang need to crack their heads on what journals need to be passed. It's the blur-never paid any attention in "consolidated accounts" class because it's too complicated-assistant accountant that needs to deal with it. *sigh*

Left the office at 2 p.m. with Zorro's irritating remark about putting my social life ahead of the pending work echo'ing at the back of my mind. Am I being selfish for ditching my work just to hang out with my girlfriends? It's not that I will be able to resolve anything by sitting in the office for the rest of the day because I need more information from other people that can only be resolve on Monday. Forgive me for having a life outside the office!

Thought I could finally unwind and relax after that. However, I got caught in the famous Mid Valley parking hazzard. It actually took me almost 30 minutes just to find a parking space! Arrggghh.. It was an unwelcome stress to my already stressful day. Luckily the movie - Memoirs of a Geisha was great.. Not super-great.. but still it was great laa.. I got the chance of drool over the oh-so-hot Ken Watanabe the whole 2 and a half hours over a huge popcorn and large coke.. Heaven...

The Nachos session after the movie was a welcoming break for the tired Binx. The nachos was delicious as always.. Hot with those gooey cheese and chunks of chicken bits and all the other toppings.. yummmss... And the company was superb.. Just what I needed to end my semi-stressful day.

After a restless day at work, it was kinda hard for me to sleep that night. Hence, spent some time on the net doing mindless things - played sudoku online (i know how to play the game already!), search for restaurant's interior ideas, helped a buta-IT person set up her very 1st online photo album, and the best is the dosage of "gelak guling session" on YM.

Dozed off at around 3 a.m. on Sunday only to wake up 4 hours later with a very tired-aching-back. I didn't realised that it is going to be that tough to wake up that early when I made breakfast plans with the girls the day before.. Ah.. the agony of pulling yourself out of the warm comfy duvet...

Luckily, the great breakfast made up for the lack of sleep. Was introduced to the place by Mom and Ducky Cousin a few weeks ago. And after our monthly SATC breakfast routine, I thought it would be great to switch to the true Malaysian-style breakfast this time around...










Nasi Lemak

Nasi Dagang

Lontong

Coffee..!












No other American breakfast can beat that! Simply irresistible...

However, all the great conversation and good food didn't manage to salvage the rest of my Sunday because it all dissolved away as soon as I stepped into the office close to 12 p.m. *sigh*

It has been a long weekend. And it is still going to be a long sleepless night cause I have yet to finish up the work that I brought back with me tadi. Plus, it definitely going to be another long week ahead.

Hope all of you had a superb weekend and a fantastic week ahead. Well, at least enjoy it on my behalf ya..



binx: i'm tired!

Hey you...

Yes, YOU...!

It's a National De-Lurker Week!

Read this today, and thought that maybe I should do the same too!

I think I might have tried to lure the silent readers of this blog (not that there are many in the 1st place) to at least say hi! for awhile now, but I guess it didn't work.

Don't think that all your visits went unnoticed. With the help of Nedstats, I know that some of the you even come from :-

~ Germany
~ the US
~ the UK
~ Netherland
~ South Africa (the nasi tomato expert)
~ Ireland (thanks to the Crush Calculator I now know there's more than 2 readers frm here)
~ Hong Kong (the person that Teek nicked as her Jackie Chan)
~ Australia (someone besides Biju)
~ Japan (student from the Nagano National College of Technology???)
~ Thailand (sawadikap...)
~ etc.

It would be really great if you could just hit the comment link and say "hey there binx!". Seriously, I won't bite (even though I do work as a beast's assistant)... I would really appreciate the gesture (a forced one at this point though.. hehehe).

click me!

So... stop hesitating and comment already...

click me!

binx: i can see youuuuuuu........

Auto cruise

Have you ever switched-off your brain and just let your body operate on auto cruise mode?

Well, after a few full swing days of tackling the consol accounts, I suddenly realised that I was not even focusing on my driving on the way back home tonight. I just let my mind drift off somewhere else, and let my body run on the auto mode. And surprisingly, it brought me safely back home.

Come to think of it, I have done it countless times before this. Especially on a rough tiring day or the morning after a rough day. I will just crawl out of bed - hit the shower - dress myself appropriately - drive to work (using the same route I take for the past 3 years) - get myself up to my floor - stash my bag at my cubicle - switched on the PC - grab my coffee mug and walk to the pantry - make myself a cup of coffee - walk back to the cubicle to start work.

Bumped into a colleague, who works in a different subsidiary - but still in the same building, in the lift this morning. We usually bump into each other most of the mornings but seldom get the chance to chat in the crowded lift. Instead, we just exchange the occasional nod and wave.

However, this morning, it was just the two of us in the lift.

Guy: Hey, are you awake?
Me: Barely..
Guy: Had your breakfast already?
Me: *lifted the Lil' plastic bag filled with donuts*
Guy: I always see you walking like a zombie in the morning..
Me: I'm not a morning person.. especially after putting in late hours the day before..
Guy: Ah.. me too *smiling his cutest smile*
Me: Eh.. but you always look cheerful whenever I see you..
Guy: Well, I have to.. I'm making an effort you see...
Me: You look better that way too..
Guy: Well, you do too.. So, stop walking around like a dead person ok
Guy: Smile.. cause you never know who might be watching *wink*
*ding* (my stop)
Me: Ah... ok. I shall try..
Guy: You do that ya.. Have a great day!



Have to switch off zombie mode
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Have to switch off zombie mode
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Have to switch off zombie mode
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7.00 pm : Zombie mode ON, Auto cruise ON






binx: what's in your head.. in your head.. zombie.. zombie.. zombie.. ee... ee.. ee..